At the end of 2019 I was 11st 1 and very much looking forward to seeing my son and his family family in Australia in Feb/Mar 2020, who I hadn’t seen for 3 years. By the time we left my weight crept up to 11st 9 but I wasn’t too bothered as I would work it off when I returned to the UK. As it happened I came back at 11st 8, so was pleased that I had maintained. And then covid-19 hit. I was all over the place - i am a people person and a creature of habit. I trained 5-6 times a week and enjoyed meeting with friends and family and like turning off a light switch, my world changed over night. I had to get my head around working from home, working out without any equipment and not being able to see anyone. My headspace was not good and my eating very quickly got out of control. My weight had crept up to 11st 13 and I knew I needed to take things in hand - hopefully not a chocolate bar! (In fact, in the time between signing up for Project X 1.0 and starting the program I needed to email Diren to increase my starting weight!) Enter Diren and his Project X. I have been following him for a while, along with James Smith and was lucky enough to have my photo taken with them both at James’ book signing last year. They both bounce off each other so well, but I think Diren is the cheeky one and I loved the warm up stuff he did before James came on stage. Because of this, and I know it sounds weird, I feel like I know Diren even though I don’t! It made joining Project X a no-brainer for me. I knew I would be able to relate to him. My starting weight was 12st 2 and I set myself the following targets: -To be under 11st, 10st 7 would be good! -To train a minimum of 4 times a week, one session to be a run - to try and get a 5k pb of under 31:17 I was motivated and raring to go and the first couple of weeks were fine, I had lost 3lb and feeling chuffed with myself. I was even enjoying getting my 10k steps in and my husband joined me as well - he is now regularly smashing 15k steps a day. The routine of training each day came back to me quickly and I felt more in control. But then things started to go backwards with my eating - I just couldn’t stop and nearly every day i would reach for the biggest bar of chocolate I could find, meaning that I was eating more than double my allowance each day! I don’t mind admitting that between start of week 3 and the end of week 5 I struggled and covid wasn’t helping either! I emailed Diren and explained I am going through the menopause and I can’t understand why I can ‘dig deep’ with regards to getting my steps and training done but not stop myself from stuffing my face! He replied saying what, if I am honest, I already knew, that I was probably boredom eating and don’t have food in the house that tempts me. So I take his words on board and go through the kitchen cupboards and remove all the calorie dense food that wasn’t doing me any good. Did that help? Not at that point no, in fact on the daily accountability form at the end of week 5 in the box that says what are you going to do tomorrow, I responded with ‘I don’t know, I’m struggling’. What I really meant was ‘sod it, I know I am going to go on to Lifestyle, only got 2 weeks to go so not going to worry about calories anymore’ (meaning gonna eat what I fancy!) And then the lightbulb moment happened - once I had taken the pressure off myself about worrying about my calorie intake, I have been able to manage my calories an awful lot better. Do I stay in calorie deficit every day? No I don’t, but I also don’t go crazy over my calories- and if I do, well it’s ok because I know tomorrow is another day where I can run a bit faster, walk a few more steps or skip a few more single unders to compensate. Did I meet my goals? Only 1 - the number of times per week I trained. BUT I am proud myself for sticking with it because without Diren and all the Project X guys things would be a whole lot worse! Even though I found the majority of the 8 weeks tough, tracking my calories no matter how high, still kept me accountable and I’ve realised I need to keep this going. Walking 10k steps a day is a habit I’ll keep and who knows, maybe I’ll out-step my husband in the coming months! The lives help enormously - Diren is honest, funny and creates good banter on the chat! The Facebook group is amazing, all lovely people who are all going in the same direction and are there to support and encourage each other. Diren has, and is continuing to, work incredibly hard to enhance his website - I love the exercises and different leaderboards that have been recently added.